This is my attempt at starting over

The resistance is everywhere. Its goal is to make you safe, which means invisible and unchanged. Visibility is dangerous. It leads to the possibility of people laughing at you. Change is dangerous because it involves moving from the known to the unknown, that might be dangerous. — Seth Godin

The goal here is to share my thoughts on how to improve health and performance with the world. Additionally, to be vulnerable, to be myself, and to find my tribe. I never felt like I belonged anywhere, not with friends, not with family. I always felt alienated.

From a young age I learned I had to be another version of myself if I wanted to feel like I mattered in the eyes of someone else. I carried that idea subconsciously for the majority of my life. It created tension in my relationships, my health, and in every job I’ve had.

I can no longer be that person because I want more from myself and for my life, besides falling in line never got me anywhere I wanted to be. It would definitely be easier to be the past version of myself because it is safe, yet I know now that it will never allow me to find happiness and live the live I want. 

They say that live gives you lessons over and over again until you learn what you need to learn. I took the past 3 months and realized I wasn’t living my life how I wanted to, evidenced by a long road of continual disappointment, failed relationships, firings for jobs, and extensive battles with depression. Fuck that, never again!

I’m sure this change will be met with resistance. People will say, “you’ve changed”, but isn’t that the point of life? If you’re not changing, you’re not improving.