145. searching

We’re all searching for something. Money. Status. Higher power. Significant others. It all come down to one thing. It’s mostly to fill a void of some past trauma that we have experienced, whether we are conscious to it or not. Or, perhaps there’s an instinctive drive inside that pushes us in a particular direction in an effort to fulfill some aspect of ourself we do not yet understand. Some of us are searching for the love we never had, in an effort to feel whole for the first time. Others are searching for the secrets of the universe because there is a piece of themselves they haven’t been able to define no matter how deep they go. 

We’re trying to put the pieces back together, thinking we’re broken, without realizing that it’s the very awareness of the flaws that provide us the ability to improve. It’s the scars that give you a reason to reflect, just as the missteps give you a reason to redirect. There are people that drift along not understanding the reasons behind their choices, or why thins happen to them, and then there are those that become mindful of the journey and understand that things happen for them. 

When we search externally for anything, we need to recognize that we are simply trying to fulfill some part of us. What we are looking for can give us clues about what we need to confront within ourselves, so that we no longer need the external validation. And once we have that, we can truly find fulfillment.