words i can’t say

I think about you everyday

I have ever since the first day I saw you

There was never anyone else

You were everything I wanted

I broke every part of myself trying to prove that to you

Nothing worked

You weren’t right for me

I learned the hard way

That a relationship is not a bandaid

I don’t blame you for anything,

but it hurts all the same

The future I had planned for us, 

I have to erase

That hurts the most.

I wanted to marry you

I wanted our kids to have your smile,

your laugh

I miss those parts of you the most

I miss what could have been

A real family

A real love story

I wish it ended differently and,

I wish it never did

But in reality, you’re the most beautiful chaos

I’ve ever known

And there’s no place in my future

for things that don’t bring me peace.

Just know, that after it all,

you’ll always have a piece of my heart

because I chose to give it to you

keep it,

and know that

I will always love you

I don’t know how not to

te amo.